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Camwhoring with contestants of MISS DEEPAVALI beauty pageant 07'.

I'll come back. and rock, after 21 oct. jus jus, watch me.
Missed halloween.
Missed movies.
Missing birthdays.

i HOPE it will all be worth it.

Keeping the END in mind.

Yes it works.

I actually wanted to upload ANN'S chalet's bdae pics, but darren lost his HP. so too bad.

Another boring week to sch.

So many sad things are happening.

I have to pull through. there's just NO choice. 

I am thinking of tattoo-ing, 'dangerous' in italics ON my right wrist. waddya think ?

cheekys - 05-09-07.

It's all over. those 5 happy days after Prelims. 
working has never been more fun.
Those subway days. those rushing to be on time. 
and my fav Sundays, meeting everyone under the sun.
The continuous flirting that never ceases. those eye connections. 
and that boy who blushed crazily. it was all so hilarious. 
and my hawt dude. who's sadly attached, but anyways would make a good friend. =)
coming out of the toilet, becoming centre of attention, which girl won't haf fun ?
hahah. WE DID. ryte babe ?


On a more serious tone, i just drew out my time plan for the big A's and i freaked out. i rarely have time to perfectly master my topics. 
i realise i pay alot of attention to Geog. i have no idea why. I think i'm just inclined towards that subject. However, promising myself not to neglect Econs at all. My maths is horrendous and i'm really really petrified. I felt so down, not have to ace any of my subjects yet. ;(
i feel even sad that there's gonna be a hell lot of work to do already.. what if i just don't make it to the uni?
                                                                                                  OH.MY.GAWD. I'm gonna go study now. bye.

The prelims are finally over. which means a hell lot closer to the big A's. 
The papers were fine, screwed Lit and Maths the most. 

gonna take a hugeee break till like Monday. 
went to work with Ashwin yesterday. hilarious. 
today is shopping. i really need to go get some essential stuff. prolly hitting the town in noon and then going off to work at 6!
AND i have to sign up for my license like tmr !!! keep procastinating. ugh. 

see ya pretty people.
don't bother reading my blog. 
there will be no exciting pictures to view till my A's.
abiding my vows. 

p.s : I NEED to show certain people what they missed out in life.
a girl with beauty as well as the brains. Too bad you underestimated me.
YOU shall be my drive.

         I'M really DISTRAUGHT.
without my daily dose of excitement or my gurls around me, i feel dead.
I'm jus patiently watching the world.
as the days just tear slowly.
silent shrieks that are suppressed.
wild tremors of sudden jolts of urgency, of fickle mindedness.
        21.11.07.
You may think i'm kidding,
       watch me.

I JUST WANNA WALK AWAY.
I can't sit there and watch the world ANYMORE.
I'm never gonna achieve anyway.
I HATE THIS.

Shaakira bitch has yet to send me the pictures.

So here are some pictures that i stole from saras cam !

                        THAT. delicious. CAKE.


                         VERY seriously trying to light up.


                               Happy b'dae !!!


                        That present he absolutely adored.


                              New Hair.


                                 G2000 sweatshirt.

            Happy ashwin.


                   Delicious seafood. and my barons' ;)

              My very pretty girls. 


              That company. 

LOVE this pic. 

 TADAAaa.

21.11.07

the official happiest day of my life.
This caged bird is unlocked! 
Okay, list of things to do after A's.

1. Work at Singtel.
2. Use the money and change DA hairrr. Deep Brown base with Ash blond hairlights
3. Get my navel piercing.
4. Shop and buy clothes.
5. Club Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays. plus saturdays. ;)
6. sign up for the fucking driving license.
7. Indulge in reading.
8. Stay over at sis place with shark.
9. Watch movies, sleep-overs !
10. basically have lotsa fun.

Okay. I'm gonna cry.

I'M gonna get my hair DYED in a brightttt color.
and get navel piercing. 
i'm really gonna do something tragic to myself. 

Have been really busy with school and books. I jus want to get done with this A's and well. and I'll give it ALL that i have. I'm gonna study and study and learn. PROCESS. okay. So school's jus as shitty as ever. It would have been worst without *BEEP*. 

I'll jus highlight the main incidents. Yesterday was a super unproductive day. Went studying at Macs with Revathi, Venga, Shaakira and Dinesh. Ended up being very distracted. Terrible moody day. Din't even talk to DJ on the fone. haha. slept on my books. Avoiding sexayback, cos... I kinda found out truths abt him. wasn't attracted in the first place anyways. good guy. period. 

Diane's birthday is tomorrow. and she's gonna have a great weekend with her bf. Happy birthday girl. =) 

I feel so solemn. Like there's no zest in my life. It's only for a while. 
Jeevan jus called. He claimed to have bought lovebirds for me. haha. 

Miss my sister. 
=( 
I'm gonna go stay in her hse for days after A's. 


Love people. gonna finish the next chapter of ATMO. before i hit the bed.
                                                                                                                       -  tenacity - 

Oh did i mention something?
I. DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABT BOYS. THEY DON'T MATTER.

Yesterday, was the day man. It was a night outing that wasn't planned yet went well. Shark stayed over my place the night before and so we had breakfast and i cooked her egg with bread which she had much difficulty eating. (you'll find out why.) And then we left to the National library in high of hopes of studying. We met Justin and his friends and sat in Mac instead cos it was less crowded. We ended up talking more then studying. 

And then Venga called. Asked if we wanted to catch a night movie. I swear it had been ages since i caught a movie. The temptation was irresistable. So we met Venga, Kumar and Sanjeev ( MaMa) at TM and went to watch Disturbia. Shark and i ended up screaming and the boys covering their faces cos they wanna act 'MACHO'. ugggg. BUT the movie was cool or WHAT. Venga initially had to leave for work at 11 and god bless us, the manager cancelled his shift. So Kumar left for work instead. 

It was me, shark, venga and sanjeev. We sat at Mac and contemplated on what to do. The boys after a horror movie wanted to explore. Me and shark were against the idea. CRAZY. explore red house in the middle of night? And we din't have much money with us then. So we gave ALL that we had and decided to..drink.

You know what happens when indians get together right. And so we took bus 3 to Pasir Ris Park and started all our stupid racism jokes. IT WAS SOOOO funny. Venga and his 'suck my cock' joke. Kumar and his racist jokes. and there's always Shark to fall for all of them. 
We went to get sum liquor that i don't even remember. and ended up sitting at Pasir Ris Park sum BBQ pit. Initially i drank, i really tink, for a girl, i can drink. Drank raw. Shark got high first. and she become okay after a while. I wanted to have fun, and then it started. I drank ALOT.
and then i started making fun of Venga, for working in a club, for being a sexist,  i rmbr. i don't know what happened later... but i started talking abt Haresh. and then i cried. I know the boys got uncomfortable. hahah. i reallyyyyy don't know what happened to me. It was as if, there was jus too much pent up anger and sadness. and ALL that suddenly came out. i dunno man. i swear. i feel so regretful now.

and we all left home happily.

Today was studying at the airport with Sharissa, Diane, Dazzle and Cat. Cat has a tattoo. COOLO MULIO. 
ima gonna get mine toooo. I jus need a significant symbol that best represents me. I wanted a butterfly, but its too annoyingly common. You know butterfly, flies from flower to flower, im like that, social butterfly, perfectly fine with everyone. happy go lucky. BUT NO cos every Jane, Jenny and Jerene has it. 
today was a not so productive day. sadly. tonight i'm gonna study like a rock, jus like how Sharissa says. Hais, how true.

I wanna fly away.
to a world that is filled with bliss and anticipation
to a world whereby I'm the prettiest soul around,
to a world where music dominates
to a world where people learn to love and to be loved,
to a world where monetary value is meaningless,
to a world where equality is practised,
to a world where dreams are believed and valued.

And i know,
that world never exists.



How emo. Hais.